The other night, I found myself on my bathroom floor, crying. It felt really good letting it all out since I haven’t cried like that in a long time. I’m a little embarrassed with how raw I’m about to go with this post. But, I feel people like to shelter their problems in their marriage, and trust me so do I. But, I want to be real. Because My feelings are real. And I hope with writing this post, It will help you get the courage to work on your marriage, and make it stronger.
Without going into too much detail about our relationship. These last few months have been some of the hardest in my marriage, and I have never felt so disconnected with my husband than I do now. Although We haven’t had a fight in a long time, I often find us sitting next to each other in a quiet room, with nothing to say.
We are stuck in this phase in our marriage, and I’m having a hard time finding my way back to my happy place. I love him, a lot! And I know that this feeling comes and goes with marriage. Having to set my pride aside and put my husband first is the hardest thing for me to do. So hard, in fact, that I still neglect actually to do it.
I know my marriage will get better, it always does. We were meant for eachother, and it sometimes takes more than just those words to reassure ourselves. For those of you who are feeling disconnected, unhappy, or even lonely in your marriage, but are too scared to talk about it. Just know, there is a reason why you married this man. And pray for him, pray for you, pray that you can get through any hard obstacles that you can face together.
Here are a few bible verses that you may want to bookmark:
“Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.” – 1 Peter 4:8 (NIV)
“Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.” -Ephesians 4:32 (NIV)
“So they are no longer two, but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let no one separate.”” – Matthew 19:6 (NIV)
” Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.” – Corinthians 13:7 (NLT)
“Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.” -James 5:16 (NIV)
Now, here are a few prayers I have been praying at night:
- Dear Heavenly Father, I trust that you see us and know what we are going through. I have faith in you that you will lead us in the right direction. I am waiting on your winds of change, Lord.
- Change me, Lord. Here is my heart. Cleanse me from any sinful thoughts I may have. Let Your love run right through me. Let my words, my tone of voice, and my touch, come through you.
- Help us see where we are making the situation worse. Guide to see your way of leadership, Lord.
- My faith is stronger in you, Lord. I will not fear based on what I can see with my eyes. I will put all my trust in You. Please shield my husband and me from reacting on hate that could divide us.
- Help me, Lord, to not get discouraged being surrounded by those who do not believe in you. The temptation to give up is much greater without your love being the center of my marriage.